Okay. So you have all seen it. The girl who is overweight that thinks she is a size 2. I'm not making fun of anyone...I just think that overweight people should have a little dignity. Honestly...some of the clothes that are made for skinny people shouldn't be made for fat people.
Now, I hope you understand. I am NOT making fun of fat people, for heaven's sake, I'm there. I also want to make it clear that I give props to big people who have the confidence to wear some of the things they do. I am however, going to give you a list of things that I believe fat chicks shouldn't wear in public. We already get negative attention...I don't feel that we should draw more negative attention in. So here it is, the list...
1. Spandex
2. Mini-skirts
3. Skinny Jeans
4. Slinky material
5. Daisy Dukes
6. Tube Tops
7. String Bikini's (remember, I said in public)
8. Short tops (that your stomach hangs out from underneath)
9. tight jumpsuits
10. and this one is one that you SHOULD wear...A BRA!
Okay...I am sure I have offended some people. But again...you have to remember...this is how I feel...it isn't the law or even what other people feel. I am just speaking from my heart.
Well Much Love!
The Fat Chick
KT
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
So, you want to lose weight?
So, I here that there are other people out there like me. Other people who want to lose weight. Well with America having an obesity epidemic and with our kids having high risks of following in our footsteps...I'd say there better be a ton more people that want to lose weight like me! I pray that there are hundreds and maybe thousands that I am going to be able to reach with my little 'ole blog here. So here is my new mission statement for 'Confessions of a fat chick'.
I first and foremost will praise and honor my awesome God in all I do and say. I will be honest with my words. I will do my best to bring you the facts. I will try and make my content as interesting as possible. I will not swim in my own self pity. I will try and keep you informed of everything going on in my journey. Last, but probably most importantly, I will ask God everyday to use me and my journey to help change all of your lives!
I am not going to give an apology for any of my post from the past, just know that from here on out I will do my best to continue this blog and uphold my mission statement. I appreciate all of my loyal readers! I just truly pray for each and every one of you that God may work through me to touch your lives in some way.
Much Love!
The Fat Chick
KT
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Yeah...it's been a while...fat chicks will understand!
Okay. So it's been a while since my last post. I'm not sure...but I think that you true 'fat chicks' will understand. I have been so dissapointed in myself. I know that I am the one who keeps sabotaging my efforts. I mean, come on...really? What is it going to take, a dad-blamed heart attack to get me in gear? I need to quit swimming in my own self pity and just put on my big girl panties and do this. Yes...I am starting again...right where I started from the last time. Hey, at least I didn't gain weight right? LOL...How dumb is that!!! No I didn't gain, but I sure didn't lose. I know I might lose a few readers after this post, I'm sorry but this is how it is. You can get frustrated at me and tell me how I should try and lose weight. Go ahead scream at me and tell me what an idiot I am and how easy it was for you. Well let me go ahead and tell you, that's not what I need to hear. I know you are just trying to help...but I am going to have to help myself! I had my 'aha' moment, I have been broken before God, I even related my story to a Bible story, but I-ME-MYSELF, has not let go of this attitude towards myself. So here's how it's going to go from now on.
1. I am going to start by reading two of what seems like some very awesome books that one of you sent me in the mail. They look fabulous and both of them seem like information that could help me change my way of thinking about this! Thank you sooooooooo much Leah! You are super sweet and an awesome person! Just keep praying for me please!
2. I am going to continue reading your comments, feedback, and messages and maybe something will change in me by doing so.
3. I am not going to try and do everything at once.
4. I am going to keep praying about this and asking God to heal my brain and my heart. (and I ask that you do so too)
So there you go...have at it. Just please be nice. Thanks!
Much Love!
The Fat Chick
KT
1. I am going to start by reading two of what seems like some very awesome books that one of you sent me in the mail. They look fabulous and both of them seem like information that could help me change my way of thinking about this! Thank you sooooooooo much Leah! You are super sweet and an awesome person! Just keep praying for me please!
2. I am going to continue reading your comments, feedback, and messages and maybe something will change in me by doing so.
3. I am not going to try and do everything at once.
4. I am going to keep praying about this and asking God to heal my brain and my heart. (and I ask that you do so too)
So there you go...have at it. Just please be nice. Thanks!
Much Love!
The Fat Chick
KT
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
You of Little Faith!!!
Okay...so a friend of ours asked us to cover for them in teaching their junior high sunday school class for the next two sundays. Cory and I of course said yes. Well in thinking about what our lessons should be about I remembered one of my favorite stories in the Bible, Jesus walking on water. I have always thought of the story as a story about hope. One where no matter how bad our life gets, Jesus is there with us and to save us. Well this still holds to be true for this story, but while reading up on it I have gotten another meaning as well.
This story talks about how when Jesus came the disciples thought that he was a ghost because he was out on the water. He said, 'It is I.' Well Peter decided he wanted proof. So he said for the Lord to show him that it was really him by calling him to come out on the water with him. Jesus said, 'Come'. So Peter did. While he was focused on the Lord he stayed above the waves and was untouched by the storm. When Peter started to doubt he started to sink, and asked the Lord to save him. Jesus immediately reached out his hand and saved him. Jesus then said, "You of Little faith, why did you doubt?" \
This story is so true of our lives. Especially those of a Fat Chick. We go along in daily life eating to our hearts content. Then we are in the middle of our 'minds' storm and realize that we need Jesus to help us to beat this and drop the weight. When we cry out to Him, He is there. But then as we are starting to progress we think that we are failing and that it is up to us, not Jesus, to get through this. Then when we stop looking to Jesus and forget to lean on him and turn everything over to him, we stop losing weight, we start failing, AGAIN! Then the horrible cycle starts over again!
We have to stop having such small faith. We have to do what Peter was doing in the beginning. We have to look to Jesus and trust in him with all our hearts to pull us through and help us drop the weight. We have to turn it over and believe that He is the almighty God and the creator of the universe and can give and take away. So I pray tonight that I keep my focus on Jesus and walk with Him in the journey of dropping this weight! I pray the same for all you sister Fat chicks out there. I also pray this for everyone who is seeking God's assistance and guidance in their life.
Much Love,
The Fat Chick
KT
This story talks about how when Jesus came the disciples thought that he was a ghost because he was out on the water. He said, 'It is I.' Well Peter decided he wanted proof. So he said for the Lord to show him that it was really him by calling him to come out on the water with him. Jesus said, 'Come'. So Peter did. While he was focused on the Lord he stayed above the waves and was untouched by the storm. When Peter started to doubt he started to sink, and asked the Lord to save him. Jesus immediately reached out his hand and saved him. Jesus then said, "You of Little faith, why did you doubt?" \
This story is so true of our lives. Especially those of a Fat Chick. We go along in daily life eating to our hearts content. Then we are in the middle of our 'minds' storm and realize that we need Jesus to help us to beat this and drop the weight. When we cry out to Him, He is there. But then as we are starting to progress we think that we are failing and that it is up to us, not Jesus, to get through this. Then when we stop looking to Jesus and forget to lean on him and turn everything over to him, we stop losing weight, we start failing, AGAIN! Then the horrible cycle starts over again!
We have to stop having such small faith. We have to do what Peter was doing in the beginning. We have to look to Jesus and trust in him with all our hearts to pull us through and help us drop the weight. We have to turn it over and believe that He is the almighty God and the creator of the universe and can give and take away. So I pray tonight that I keep my focus on Jesus and walk with Him in the journey of dropping this weight! I pray the same for all you sister Fat chicks out there. I also pray this for everyone who is seeking God's assistance and guidance in their life.
Much Love,
The Fat Chick
KT
Lab work
Okay. So I had my lab work drawn on Friday. I wasn't happy with the results. I am borderline everything! Your LDL cholesterol (bad) is suppose to be 0-99, mine was 107! My sugar, which mind you I fasted for more than 12 hours, was 106. That doesn't sound bad, but for fasting that long it upset me! So needless to say I have to crank it up. I am joining the local gym and get my butt in gear. I will let you know how it goes! Please pray for me...my fat butt is going to be hurting! I am going tomorrow to join...and may work out for the first time.
The Fat Chick
KT
The Fat Chick
KT
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
"Losing it with Jillian"...
This is my new favorite show! I love that hulu.com has it on the day after it airs. I absloutely LOVE it! I love Jillian Michaels and I think that she is an awesome person! I just watched the fourth episode, The Northern Family. I thought it was pretty awesome that they are just right down the road in Goodletsville.
Now, what have I been up to? Well I have been eating better and drinking more water. I have had some cokes in the last week but just a few. I AM going to change my life. I'm not going to do as usual and let one setback ruin my whole journey. Jillian Michaels says, 'the only way to truly fail is to quit.' That is so true. I am going to stop being afraid of failure and as the old Nike slogan says, JUST DO IT!
So here are a few of my goals for the next 8 weeks:
1. To love myself no matter my weight
2. To feed my family healthier foods
3. To Lose 40lbs.
4. To buy a bodybugg
5. To get some New Balance 1123's
So thanks and much love!
The Fat Chick
KT
Now, what have I been up to? Well I have been eating better and drinking more water. I have had some cokes in the last week but just a few. I AM going to change my life. I'm not going to do as usual and let one setback ruin my whole journey. Jillian Michaels says, 'the only way to truly fail is to quit.' That is so true. I am going to stop being afraid of failure and as the old Nike slogan says, JUST DO IT!
So here are a few of my goals for the next 8 weeks:
1. To love myself no matter my weight
2. To feed my family healthier foods
3. To Lose 40lbs.
4. To buy a bodybugg
5. To get some New Balance 1123's
So thanks and much love!
The Fat Chick
KT
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wow. Yeah that's it, just wow. It has happened for me. All this time I have heard people talking about their 'aha' moment. Well let me tell you a little secret, everytime I have broken down I thought I was having my 'aha' moment. Every time I have cried and prayed and asked God to please help me overcome this, I have thought that was it. I mean, afterall, I was asking God, my totally awesome God to take it over and make it his. How could that not be my moment? Well God had bigger things in store for me! Of course he did and does! Let me tell you about my 'aha' moment!
Okay...so last night and tonight I watched the first three episodes of the new show, 'Losing it with Jillian'. (which by the way is AMAZING!) As I watched these shows I thought to myself, 'I don't have what these people have, I don't know why I keep sabotaging myself and keep gaining weight. I have had a fabulous life and been blessed with wonderful people in my life. I just don't have the emotional ties to weight like these people do.' There is one episode in particular (the third one) where a girl named Rachel reminded me of myself. She was 25 and had failed nursing school. She said she didn't know why she had failed but that she doesn't give things her all because she is afraid of failure. Ding ding ding! duh...so am I. So this got me to thinking about my fear of failure.
I was just lying here in bed thinking about why I am afraid of failure and the problems it has caused. Another way I could explain my fear is the need to be perfect. I feel like if I am going to do something I should be perfect at it, the best, no exceptions. I have went through my adult life just being lackluster, giving minimal effort and just skimming by. And you want to know why...because I am afraid if I give something my all it may not be good enough. So, why do I feel this way? Well I bet if you ask my dad he will give you some crazy answer as to why I feel this way. In all reality I feel this way because it's the way my dad made me feel when I was younger. I know all parents want is the best for their kids. But really and truly forcing your kids to be the best at everything or perfect isn't going to make them any better. Now let me explain. I do believe in helping your kids excel and get better, but when they are giving it everything they have at the end of the day you should let them know you are proud of them. At the end of my days my dad would just tell me the things I did wrong and tell me that it wasn't good enough. As a child you aim to please your parents and make them proud. Whenever I was doing my best and it wasn't good enough I felt I could never make my dad proud. So what did I do? I gave up. I gave up on everything. I mean, why not? Why try your hardest at something and still 'fail'? Now I wasn't actually failing, just in my father's eyes. But at the time I couldn't see that. Actually, I haven't been able to see that until TONIGHT!
From the time I was in elementary school until now, (about 16 years) I have felt like my best wasn't good enough. That I shouldn't even try, because if I did I would fail. I have felt like if you aren't perfect, you aren't good enough. Well today I also was at a pool party. Yes me, a fat chick at a pool party. There were tons of people there. I noticed several things. I notice that even the 'skinny' chicks aren't perfect. They aren't human barbie's running around in their bathing suits. They have a little 'extra' in some areas and yet they were completely okay with running around the pool all day just in their suits! (and if you are one of those skinny chicks, thank you...thank you for not being barbies and showing me that I don't have to be! You are beautiful people!) What a novel idea...being comfortable in your own skin and not having to reach for a towel as you get out of the pool and never taking it off. It made me realize, that when I am losing weight, my body doesn't have to be perfect. It doesn't have to be free of lumps and bumps. I just have to be comfortable with myself and where I am right then. My God made me just the way I am...and for good reasons! He made me PERFECT!
NO MORE TRYING...'Trying is planning to fail.' Jillian Michaels. I am perfect already so no need to strive for perfection. I am going to lose weight, because that's what I want. I don't have to lose it perfectly, or more importantly, I don't have to look like Barbie when I'm at my goal. I just have to look like ME!
So, this was my 'aha' moment. I hope you all enjoy reading my blog. I hope and pray that if you are a fat chick like me you will have your 'aha' moment soon.
MUCH LOVE!
The Fat Chick
KT
p.s. just for your info...I love my dad. He is who he is. I know that God is working on him too!
Okay...so last night and tonight I watched the first three episodes of the new show, 'Losing it with Jillian'. (which by the way is AMAZING!) As I watched these shows I thought to myself, 'I don't have what these people have, I don't know why I keep sabotaging myself and keep gaining weight. I have had a fabulous life and been blessed with wonderful people in my life. I just don't have the emotional ties to weight like these people do.' There is one episode in particular (the third one) where a girl named Rachel reminded me of myself. She was 25 and had failed nursing school. She said she didn't know why she had failed but that she doesn't give things her all because she is afraid of failure. Ding ding ding! duh...so am I. So this got me to thinking about my fear of failure.
I was just lying here in bed thinking about why I am afraid of failure and the problems it has caused. Another way I could explain my fear is the need to be perfect. I feel like if I am going to do something I should be perfect at it, the best, no exceptions. I have went through my adult life just being lackluster, giving minimal effort and just skimming by. And you want to know why...because I am afraid if I give something my all it may not be good enough. So, why do I feel this way? Well I bet if you ask my dad he will give you some crazy answer as to why I feel this way. In all reality I feel this way because it's the way my dad made me feel when I was younger. I know all parents want is the best for their kids. But really and truly forcing your kids to be the best at everything or perfect isn't going to make them any better. Now let me explain. I do believe in helping your kids excel and get better, but when they are giving it everything they have at the end of the day you should let them know you are proud of them. At the end of my days my dad would just tell me the things I did wrong and tell me that it wasn't good enough. As a child you aim to please your parents and make them proud. Whenever I was doing my best and it wasn't good enough I felt I could never make my dad proud. So what did I do? I gave up. I gave up on everything. I mean, why not? Why try your hardest at something and still 'fail'? Now I wasn't actually failing, just in my father's eyes. But at the time I couldn't see that. Actually, I haven't been able to see that until TONIGHT!
From the time I was in elementary school until now, (about 16 years) I have felt like my best wasn't good enough. That I shouldn't even try, because if I did I would fail. I have felt like if you aren't perfect, you aren't good enough. Well today I also was at a pool party. Yes me, a fat chick at a pool party. There were tons of people there. I noticed several things. I notice that even the 'skinny' chicks aren't perfect. They aren't human barbie's running around in their bathing suits. They have a little 'extra' in some areas and yet they were completely okay with running around the pool all day just in their suits! (and if you are one of those skinny chicks, thank you...thank you for not being barbies and showing me that I don't have to be! You are beautiful people!) What a novel idea...being comfortable in your own skin and not having to reach for a towel as you get out of the pool and never taking it off. It made me realize, that when I am losing weight, my body doesn't have to be perfect. It doesn't have to be free of lumps and bumps. I just have to be comfortable with myself and where I am right then. My God made me just the way I am...and for good reasons! He made me PERFECT!
NO MORE TRYING...'Trying is planning to fail.' Jillian Michaels. I am perfect already so no need to strive for perfection. I am going to lose weight, because that's what I want. I don't have to lose it perfectly, or more importantly, I don't have to look like Barbie when I'm at my goal. I just have to look like ME!
So, this was my 'aha' moment. I hope you all enjoy reading my blog. I hope and pray that if you are a fat chick like me you will have your 'aha' moment soon.
MUCH LOVE!
The Fat Chick
KT
p.s. just for your info...I love my dad. He is who he is. I know that God is working on him too!
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