Shopping...I love love love shopping. I love shopping for my daughter's clothes, for my daughter's toys, for my husband, for my house, for my hobbies, for almost everything under the sun...EXCEPT my clothes! It's such a terrible terrible world out there for fat chicks when it comes to clothing.
Okay so let's name a few of the 'skinny' girls favorite stores; Abercrombie, Hollister, Pac Sun, American Eagle, Charlotte Russe, Maurices, Talbot, New York and Company, Buckle, Old Navy, Gap, the big department stores, and of course Victoria Secret's.
Let's see, what do us fat chicks have to look forward to; Lane Bryant (for clothes and undergarments), and very very small sections in the department stores, Cato, and Fashion Bug. I personally do not care for ANY of the options for fat chicks. It is extremely hit and miss. Most of the plus size clothing out there is made for the 'older' population, or is way too flashy for the 'normal' everyday wear. I know not everyone who is plus sized out there is as much of a 'tomboy' as I am, but I'm pretty sure not everyone of them want to be walking around everyday with a big bling bling flower on our shirt or those little bitty cap sleeves. I also am pretty sure that most of us don't want to be walking around with our cleavage hanging out of all the v-neck shirts that are made to take the attention away from us being fat. Come on now, people know we are fat, showing our cleavage isn't going to cover it up. Where is the 'plain jane' clothing that I want? You know what I mean, the cute jeans (that don't show your crack everytime you sit down), and the cute crew neck tops. Skinny people have them, why not us?
Because of all of the previous things mentioned, shopping trips turn into all day emotional roller coaster rides that usually end up in only buying one or two things (if any). The shopping trips I take usually end in taking home more for Kylie or Cory than myself, when it was suppose to be a trip for ME to get clothes. Trust me when I tell you I try on a MILLION things, well at least as many as they have in that store. Everything either fits funny or is way too fancy or blingy for my style. I usually end up having at least one, if not five, breakdowns in the dressing room per trip.
So, what's in the closet of a fat chick who can't find clothes? Well let me tell you, I have a closet full of clothes, most of which don't fit. Why don't they fit? Well this goes back to my post about weight loss, it goes up and down more than the stock market. So if they don't fit what do I wear? Well I have two pairs of jeans that fit properly, one pair of black pants, a few random tshirts, and about three half way dressy shirts that I wear at all times! Yeah I know, it's sounds bad huh? Well I'm just thankful that I have clothes.
That's pretty much the life of a fat chick and fashion. Trust me, I wish I were more fashionable, then I would have more wearable clothes. When it comes down to it, us fat chicks can't even enjoy a girls most treasured hobby, clothes shopping!
Thanks for reading!
and Happy shopping!
The Fat Chick,
KT
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Sunday, May 16, 2010
So it's about to get raw...
Here I sit, on a Sunday afternoon. I am stewing in my own self pity, again. I am so sick of being fat, I say it over, and over, and over again. Each time I feel like this I say to myself, 'this is IT! I am done with being fat! I am tired of being miserable and unhappy with myself!' I also vow to NEVER eat another harmful or fattening thing and SWEAR to drink water only. Then the next day I find myself unable to make it through the day without that Moutain Dew or without that chocolate. My excuse everytime is, 'oh well I DESERVE it today, it's been a hard day,' or 'I'll start tomorrow with eating right, I just NEED this right now.' Seriously? I DESERVE to be fat? Well let me answer that, NO, NO, NO, I do NOT deserve to be fat! I am a great person and have a great family, I am a child of God! These so called 'rewards' are actually some sick form of punishment.
So why am I writing this post? Well I am not sure actually. Maybe it's because I need to get this out and make it known, being fat is a daily struggle. Maybe I need for this to be IT, you know, my out to being fat. Maybe this is going to be the last straw, the thing that pushes me over the edge, and makes me actually do the things I have promised myself so many times in the past. Maybe my Creator, my God, is going to use my struggle and this blog as a way to help many, many more. (this is what I pray as I am writing this)
Also, if you are wondering why I am writing this now, let me tell you about my weekend. It started Friday night when I went to a friends graduation reception. First came the getting ready for it. Of course I have no 'cute' clothes so I donned my only pair of black pants and a random polo. I didn't even look in the mirrior before I left, besides, I knew it didn't look good, how could it? I'm fat. So when we got there I walked in, talked a bit, then sat down to eat with my daughter. The entire time I was getting our food and while I was eating, I felt like people kept looking at me with judging eyes, wondering why I was even eating. I felt as if every bite I took someone saw me and said 'come on lady, just stop'. The sad thing was, I didn't even eat very much. So then we went home. Saturday, I donned the same pair of black pants and a different shirt. Again, not looking in the mirrior. My daughter and I then went to the same friend's nursing pinning. Of course, by the time I left, I had sweated off all of my makeup that I put on. My thought was, 'why even try, you can't make fat pretty'. Then Saturday night we went to my cousins dance recital...ahh the dreaded stadium seating. I know you 'skinny' people hate sitting beside a fat person, but guess what, us fat people hate sitting there PERIOD! I feel absolutely terrible when I go to something that has seats that can't be moved. I hate 'spilling' over onto someone else's seat. I feel as though again, everyone is watching me and wondering when I am going to move.
So that was my weekend in a nutshell. I hope I didn't bore you all too much. I just felt the need to let this all out. I wanted you all to know how it feels to be fat. If you are fat like me, I pray for you, I pray that you don't feel the way I do. I pray that God heals us and helps us change our brains and our habits. I pray that I can do this, I know that I can with God's help.
Now, I know this was a lot to take in and I hope you made it all the way through. But I do ask that you remember, I am broken, this is me, raw. I know that this isn't every fat chick's reality...but it is mine. With that said, I welcome comments. I would love to hear what you all have to say! If you don't comment here you can message me on facebook with your comments. If you arent my friend on facebook yet you can add me at www.facebook.com/inspiredbygrace Thanks so much! Much Love!
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13
The fat chick,
KT
So why am I writing this post? Well I am not sure actually. Maybe it's because I need to get this out and make it known, being fat is a daily struggle. Maybe I need for this to be IT, you know, my out to being fat. Maybe this is going to be the last straw, the thing that pushes me over the edge, and makes me actually do the things I have promised myself so many times in the past. Maybe my Creator, my God, is going to use my struggle and this blog as a way to help many, many more. (this is what I pray as I am writing this)
Also, if you are wondering why I am writing this now, let me tell you about my weekend. It started Friday night when I went to a friends graduation reception. First came the getting ready for it. Of course I have no 'cute' clothes so I donned my only pair of black pants and a random polo. I didn't even look in the mirrior before I left, besides, I knew it didn't look good, how could it? I'm fat. So when we got there I walked in, talked a bit, then sat down to eat with my daughter. The entire time I was getting our food and while I was eating, I felt like people kept looking at me with judging eyes, wondering why I was even eating. I felt as if every bite I took someone saw me and said 'come on lady, just stop'. The sad thing was, I didn't even eat very much. So then we went home. Saturday, I donned the same pair of black pants and a different shirt. Again, not looking in the mirrior. My daughter and I then went to the same friend's nursing pinning. Of course, by the time I left, I had sweated off all of my makeup that I put on. My thought was, 'why even try, you can't make fat pretty'. Then Saturday night we went to my cousins dance recital...ahh the dreaded stadium seating. I know you 'skinny' people hate sitting beside a fat person, but guess what, us fat people hate sitting there PERIOD! I feel absolutely terrible when I go to something that has seats that can't be moved. I hate 'spilling' over onto someone else's seat. I feel as though again, everyone is watching me and wondering when I am going to move.
So that was my weekend in a nutshell. I hope I didn't bore you all too much. I just felt the need to let this all out. I wanted you all to know how it feels to be fat. If you are fat like me, I pray for you, I pray that you don't feel the way I do. I pray that God heals us and helps us change our brains and our habits. I pray that I can do this, I know that I can with God's help.
Now, I know this was a lot to take in and I hope you made it all the way through. But I do ask that you remember, I am broken, this is me, raw. I know that this isn't every fat chick's reality...but it is mine. With that said, I welcome comments. I would love to hear what you all have to say! If you don't comment here you can message me on facebook with your comments. If you arent my friend on facebook yet you can add me at www.facebook.com/inspiredbygrace Thanks so much! Much Love!
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13
The fat chick,
KT
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Coming Soon...
I promise that a new post is coming soon... This is finals week! I have a final on Thursday and one on Friday. Then on Friday we are going to a friends graduation reception. Saturday we are going to that friends nursing pinning and then to my little cousin's dance recital. So this week I am busy busy busy. Next week, things will start coming out of my big mouth mind and on to this blog! Hope you all have a great weekend! I'm sure I will, well as much as an uncomfortable fat chick can when she feels like everyone is looking at her everytime she takes a bite! lol. Much Love!
KT
KT
Monday, May 3, 2010
Just so you know....it sucks to be fat...
Well you are reading this blog for one of three reasons...1.) you are my friend and thought you might check it out, or 2.)you are fat, overweight, plump, have some extra cushion, have a 'pretty face', or you have been any of these things at one time in your life, or 3.) you are scared of becoming any of those things in #2 at some point in your life.
Here's a little history on me...I'm 28, mother to one and wife. I have been overweightmost all of my adult life. I'm not sure exactly how I got here but I'm sure it had a little something lot to do with the fact I quit doing exercise and started eating more unhealthy food, well actually more food all together. I have 'tried' to lose weight in the past and have been successful many times, well partially successful. My diet history is a like most of the people on earth who have 'dieted' before; gain weight, lose weight, gain weight, gain weight, gain weight, lose weight, gain weight, lose weight, gain weight, gain weight, gain weight, lose weight, and as always I end a diet with 'gain weight'. Now at the ripe old age of 28 I am on high blood pressure medicine and I have high cholesterol. (huh, wonder how that happened)
Now, the reason for this blog. I am so sick and tired of people thinking that fat people don't know we are fat and thinking that we are completely comfortable with being fat. Yeah I know...you skinny people are probably saying to your self right now, 'why don't you just get up and exercise and just put down the food?' Well, honestly, I don't know. I am positively miserable with being fat, and I am here bringing to light what us fat chicks go through in our daily lives that our skinny counter parts may not even imagine.
KT
Here's a little history on me...I'm 28, mother to one and wife. I have been overweight
Now, the reason for this blog. I am so sick and tired of people thinking that fat people don't know we are fat and thinking that we are completely comfortable with being fat. Yeah I know...you skinny people are probably saying to your self right now, 'why don't you just get up and exercise and just put down the food?' Well, honestly, I don't know. I am positively miserable with being fat, and I am here bringing to light what us fat chicks go through in our daily lives that our skinny counter parts may not even imagine.
Be ready to laugh a little, cry a little and have your eyes opened to how it feels to be a fat chick. So here goes...here are the Confessions of a Fat chick...a fed up fat chick!
KT
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